[ the last time he told anyone anything about his life at home was so long ago-- things hadn't even reached the apex of how truly bad they were by that point. sure, he was battered and shouted down whenever he so much as dared to express even minor emotions deemed disagreeable, but at least his mother let him leave the house to go to private school for awhile. after he was caught sneaking out to play with his first and only friends, the only people who had any idea of what he was enduring...
riddle thinks about how much more painful the loneliness became after that. being confined and homeschooled by his mother, bars on his windows and front door locked, imprisoned like a princess in a book-- after knowing how sweet happiness and companionship could be, nothing was more crushing. nothing.
at least, that was the case. riddle wonders how he's going to live through returning home. ]
That isn't possible. I could never do such a thing to Mama. Things aren't always bad. There are happy memories here and there too.
Besides, I have nowhere to go and no one to turn to. My father is perfectly aware of what she does and how she treats me, yet never tried to take me with him wherever he is. I'm not permitted to speak to my other relatives, nor do I have any friends back home as those are forbidden as well.
You make it sound so simple... Please don't take this the wrong way, but I don't want to end up like you, Toji-san.
[ alone except for transient company, filling holes inside himself with vices. he can't imagine the man believes he has a chance to grasp happiness someday-- riddle, on the other hand, can't afford to lose hope. ]
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riddle thinks about how much more painful the loneliness became after that. being confined and homeschooled by his mother, bars on his windows and front door locked, imprisoned like a princess in a book-- after knowing how sweet happiness and companionship could be, nothing was more crushing. nothing.
at least, that was the case. riddle wonders how he's going to live through returning home. ]
That isn't possible. I could never do such a thing to Mama. Things aren't always bad. There are happy memories here and there too.
Besides, I have nowhere to go and no one to turn to. My father is perfectly aware of what she does and how she treats me, yet never tried to take me with him wherever he is. I'm not permitted to speak to my other relatives, nor do I have any friends back home as those are forbidden as well.
You make it sound so simple... Please don't take this the wrong way, but I don't want to end up like you, Toji-san.
[ alone except for transient company, filling holes inside himself with vices. he can't imagine the man believes he has a chance to grasp happiness someday-- riddle, on the other hand, can't afford to lose hope. ]